It is amazing to me that in such a short time your perception of a situation can change by so much. Not that it is of earth-shattering importance to anyone outside of myself and my family, but it is a new perspective on things.
Old boyfriend: not paying a bill that I'm now being hounded about because I was stupid enough to neglect to close the account - NOT fair, but since I am unable to contact him it just drives home the stupidity of myself last spring. Admittedly there were VALID medical situations going on but it doesn't help anyone now.
Eldest daughter: finally getting a grip on the fact that my ex isn't going to provide a "perfect alternate family" for her. Wise of her, considering the last time he saw her (by his choice) was March! he doesn't even call her - if she wants to talk to him we have to do it. He isn't good at answering email either. Basically unless I put her in front of his face he ignores her. His wife tries to help, but it hasn't been very successful. She also realized how close her sister came to dying - more than once - during her fight with cancer, and how fragile she still is.
Myself? The medical profession discovered one of the probable "main causes" of some of my health issues, and hopefully it will help solve many of them. I also know that I haven't dealt well with all that has gone on, whether or not it was from one of my choices or from someone else's, and that it can no longer be put off. No, I'm not looking forward to it, but I can no longer afford not to do so.
Youngest daughter: in summer school to help her 'catch up' from missing most of kindergarten. her port-a-cath is scheduled for removal on Friday, if the pulmonary test goes well on Thursday. It is a major milestone, but I am having nightmares about it. Entirely because of past events, and entirely understandable. Her post-transplant issues are also well within "normal", which I am thankful for yet somehow I feel (and she feels!) that everything from the past should have been 'enough'!
Ah well. Life is never "fair" or "smooth" around here, but things are a million gazillion times better than a year ago. Hold on to the good stuff!
